It’s Okay to Admit When We’re Not Okay

I’ve been kind of a mess lately.

I’ve had corrupt thoughts when I should’ve taken them captive to make them obedient to Him.

I’ve been impatient when I should’ve just prayed.

Spoken words I shouldn’t have while praises were never considered.

Even now this isn’t how I’d love to start off a post but reality and truth must trump comfort if thriving-hope is sought.

I’ve felt lost, confused, and hopeless—empty, reckless, and careless.

Someone recently suggested that it seems I’m overwhelming myself with too much busyness. Ya that could be.

I haven’t been able to navigate through my heart to limit my emotions and concerns.

I humbly share this with you though because in the midst of my crummy attitude I’ve continued to read from God’s word—studying scripture, and reading daily devotions regardless.

And here’s the verse that continually sweeps across my thoughts:

‘So is my word that goes out from my mouth: it will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.’ —Isaiah 55:11

Interestingly this is the same verse I go to when I have hope for an unbeliever who attends a church service or a youth kiddo who seems to care more about impressing the opposite gender rather than listening to the youth pastor’s Bible lesson. This is like my go to “prayer” verse, filled with hope in the way that it basically says ‘God’s word goes out…and even though we think “someone” may not be catching it, we’re reassured that His word, indeed, is accomplishing purpose in that person’s life, some how, some way, and at some point.’ …No different than a seed planted in soil needs a bit of water…we water and water waiting for some sign of life to pop through the dark colored soil and just when we think nothing is going to happen one day it finally does—and that little seed grows into a beautiful, remarkable sight.

I love that. And I’m okay with the fact that I’m kind of that person right now…I may feel a bit far from God right now but I truly believe in the power of those words and I know that even though my attitude has been ugly lately, those words from Isaiah 55:11 are as much for me as they are for someone who doesn’t even believe, yet happens to come across God’s message.

It’s not fun to write stuff like this; there are times when I’ve had people comment on my blog thanking me for some truth they picked up along the way…beautiful…but that’s praise and credit for Jesus, really I’m learning right along with everyone else as I share my words—after all this blog was written for His purpose and glory.

I’ll figure out my mess, it’ll settle, and this too shall pass…because of my hope in Christ.

I think if we’re honest we all have times of frustration, disappointment, and negative alterations to our feelings but we’re also guilty of shying away from sharing. Sometimes that’s pride standing at the forefront of a mound of buried trials. The sweetness of sharing, however, is that we see how alike we are even though our struggles look different…and the risk of not sharing is that we miss opportunities to build relationships. When we share with one another we find that we’re not alone. God made us for relationship with others and with Him. (Genesis 2:18, John 3:16)

It’s good, and healthy even, to be willing to echo the words of David in Psalm 139:23-24, ‘Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.’

May we all be bold enough to claim that verse into a prayer over our lives—in light that we may grow into something magnificent…for His purpose.

“Come now, let us reason together, says the Lord: though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red like crimson, they shall become like wool.” —Isaiah 1:18

Author: alimw2013

About For His Purpose~ My name is Alicia and I'm a thirty-something year old who loves Jesus. Only through God’s amazing grace and mercy I have been redeemed from past regret and shame. Reading His word has allowed me to look past Satan’s forceful lies, to see myself for who Christ says I am in Him. Through writing I have learned why I made the choices I made in my younger years and I now have a better understanding of why I desire to love God like crazy these days. Despite my daily failures, God remains faithful always. I am reassured of His unconditional love for me by every ink-drop spilled out on paper, each committed prayer as I cry out to Him, and deep understanding reflected through reading His word as truth. Yes keeping a blog will make me vulnerable to others’ opinions- there will be some who don’t understand, some who may criticize or judge, but on the other hand if just one piece expressed through my writing grabs someone’s attention and directs them to God, then pouring out my heart in a blog for the world to read is worth it. I choose to glorify Him alone through words streaming across a glowing screen. And it wouldn’t be fair if I didn’t reveal the fact that I’m incredibly quirky; I’m my loving husband’s best friend, my vivacious kids’ craziest cheerleader and spiritual trainer (3 John 1:4). I love anything farmhouse and rustic style. I think cupping a warm coffee mug in the palm of my hands is more satisfying than the contents within. I share a common obsession with my husband for the mountains, but I would (without a doubt) settle for waves crashing against my legs at the Atlantic Ocean just as well, and I almost always have a Yorkie curled up on my lap while writing. *All photos are photographed by and therefore may not be stored or photocopied in any manner.

18 thoughts on “It’s Okay to Admit When We’re Not Okay”

  1. Amen, Alicia! I appreciate your honesty! I have had plenty of days where my mind, heart, and attitude needed an adjustment from the Lord. We are all works in progress and I am so thankful for His patience, grace, and mercy. Praying for you! God bless!

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    1. Ahhh thank you!! It sounds bad but to know I’m not alone is reassuring!! I’m thankful when people are humble enough to share flaws with one another…with healing in mind and to bring glory to God through that.
      Thank you for reading and commenting Ryan!

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  2. So basically you’re exactly like the rest of us. ☺ That’s nice to know… lol. Sorry. I laugh because life is funny. At least we still have that. The joy is there even when we’re a total mess. God is there even when we are tripping over ourselves or feel far. Then when we ask for what we need He reminds us that all we had to do was ask. Yeah, He likes to give good things to those who ask. Thanks for the verse. Yep, it came from God. It totally came from God, but we’re allowed to be thankful for each other. So I’m thankful for you and that you keep sharing it all. How else would I know that I’m not the only one. ☺ Love you Ali. Jesus does too. ❤ ❤ ❤

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    1. Thank you so much for being real and sharing. It honestly soothes my heart to know that others can relate even if it’s over something negative, there’s the positive side that shows bigger by reminding us that we’re not alone, we have one another to build each other up. Obviously not a happy energetic post but one that was necessary for me to put out nevertheless. Hoping you and Andrew are well my friend! Thank you for the sweet visit.❤️

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  3. It all boils down to trust, doesn’t it? In times like these, someone suffering, or anxious, or overcome with fear & uncertainty will read this post from your heart & gain clarity & hope. Proud of you, Alicia. God’s grip – Alan

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    1. Thank you Alan!! Ya you’re right about trust…I like that word and I definitely need to camp out on it!!! Surely God has a purpose for this post, I hadn’t been able to write lately about anything but when I finally acted in God’s will to open up about this, the words flowed without a hitch this morning.
      God bless!!!

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    1. I’m so thankful for our Lord!! Especially with the idea that these hard times have the potential to grow our relationship with Him when we just continue to rely on His faithfulness no matter what! Thanks so much for reading, I need to get in on your blog…it goes back to my mess of being unorganized!!

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      1. I have been so unorganized. There has been so much going on in my life, in the life of my family, and even in our church. Satan is roaming the depths of the earth and his hand has been destructive. But God, is our Shepherd and we know His voice. We also know the Word, and while the battle may be strong, He is stronger. I have faith and trust, I will be strong and courageous as I follow His lead. Let us gear up for battle daily as we put on the armor of God and work our way THROUGH the valley which strengthens and grows us even stronger. We may incur scars, however, we also gain wisdom as we follow behind our God. Amen!

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