Last year (August 2018) I put out a post titled Get Real. I wrote about my colored-over gray hairs, and created a parallel in the way we sometimes cover gray areas of our life—making it appear like we have it all put together.
Okay, so while that post was meant to encourage authenticity in a person—to bring light to those gray areas…remaining open, honest, and real with others in an emotional sense—well for me, the words of that post (when I reread it) tangle me up on my increasingly graying hair, concealed under shades of dark hair dye…complete dishonesty with myself and anyone else who’s been fooled by my false-dark tresses.
Why in the heck would I encourage honesty and openness, when my hair color isn’t even real?!
With that in mind, I’m done coloring it!!
And I’ll be the first to say, it doesn’t look great right now.
The gray roots are nearly an inch in length at this point; I’m sure you’ll need to zoom in or grab a magnifying glass to see them in the photo, but I assure you they’re there! The bathroom mirror…and my oldest daughter…remind me frequently.
I still have quite a bit of natural brown so it’s going to get interesting before it gets normal. It’s going to require patience. It’s going to beg for my grace. My self-conscious mindset will, without a doubt, be tested.
This is where the Good Word beckons its way in and then firmly stands over any negative words or thoughts that may potentially be spoken over my decision, even my own wavering mentality in this choice.
Psalm 139:14 says, ‘I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.’
This was one of King David’s many praises to God, recognizing Him as our Perfect Maker.
I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
I believe, 100 percent, in the validity of that, but when I read it and then continue to color my hair, it goes against every hope and assurance found in that verse. Every time I choose to color my hair, that false dark color boldly shouts that I’m in disagreement with the true beauty found at the core of the very words in Psalm 139:14. If I’m covering up gray hair then I feel like I’m saying I don’t believe the sincerity of that verse…without even moving my lips.
The truth is, people, it’s time for me to take my own advice, and get real!
The world tells us to ‘fake it to make it’: color it, buy it, get the plastic surgery (been there, done that—that’ll be a different “brave-topic” post for later)…
However, when we remove ourselves from the pressures of a multi-billion dollar hair color industry, and allow scripture to claim over us and soak into our roots, this is what we find regarding hair color:
Proverbs 16:31, NIV version: ‘Gray hair is a crown of splendor; it is attained in the way of righteousness.’
For simplicity, I love how the NLT version words it:
‘Gray hair is a crown of glory; it is gained by living a godly life.’
Doesn’t that sound beautiful…and natural…and filled with wisdom?!!
I’ve decided I’m gonna embrace this gray crown of glory, because frankly the days of my youth I treated like a joke, and if I’m supposed to be moving forward and not dwelling in the past (see Philippians 3:13 below) then allowing my hair color to age naturally is one more step away from that mess. This is one more way to disconnect from the errors of my past; I’m pretty fond of the ‘seasoned’ version of me over the old me anyway.
I’ve done my research and I know I’m not the only woman in her mid-thirties with covered grays so I’ll continue to give updates on how my hair is growing out—tips, advice, picture phases, and encouragement, through future posts. Subscribe (below) to the blog with your email address if you haven’t already to receive those updates and other weekly posts!
And if you’ve found your way to my blog just because of this post, I promise you’re not here by accident. Trust that you were created by an amazing God who loves you just the way you are (hair colored or not) and who has created you fearfully and wonderfully.
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